The Unseen Battle

The Unseen battle

Everyday we find reason to continue our journey  toward seeking for a better  future and along the way we met friends, made mistakes and messed up.This is indeed true  all of us experienced meeting new friends it can be a bad friends or  good friends who added color to our life and it gives both pains and happiness,Once in my life I met friends whom I considered as best friends I cherished  a lot and run my world to them, we used to dream together and shared the same goal in life where I thought it  last forever but I made mistake after how many years investing for that friendship to be strong and working to meet the goal for all of us, all of a sudden we went to our own way,one friend get married and change her direction as well as her goal and priority in life of course that is to build her  own family and with my other friend we had some misunderstanding that lead us to separate lives and now I guess we are both starting our new life alone.

It was hard to start new life with new direction and new goal,however we need to moved on and meet the unseen battle of life, it may sound bitter but thats how I visualized it.It took more than one year before I recovered and start all over again investing courage and having goal in life but this time for my self alone.What happened I think was a nightmare for me and hoping won’t come back again.Due to the experience I became self centered I always priorities my self and sometimes I guess I ignored those people who are with me when I was weak and nothing instead of messing up always.Even old memories and laughter that we shared was deleted from my memory because I want to forget  the pain and act like nothing happened.

At present I am focusing more on constructing my self and starting building my name and continue the goal we had before but this time with my own.I am happy that I can actually realized those dreams  but it was just sad that I was not able to share and do the things that supposed we do it together with my best friends.Realization always comes at last like I am certainly that I was in denial to my self that I forgot them but in fact each day I always missed them and wishing that they are still my best buddy and they are besides me that I can share the success that I have now. I guess in the future I still choose to be hurt rather than to feel nothing at all.